The past three weeks at church have felt like that for me. Maybe its the Holy Spirit preparing my heart for something, but whatever is "coming" is wrecking my heart. I've been so emotionally attached to everything that has been shared during this Worship series, Sketch nights, and even at our Leadership Brunch. Just listening to Pastor Eric share his thoughts about extending our invitation to the community about the Global Leadership Summit brought tears to my eyes.
I'm praying that God is changing my thought process, (not that its been bad it could always use improvement) bettering me to have more of a heart for those that are lost and unsaved, a heart like His. I find assurance in that when just the thought of having people from our community come to our church to learn about leadership with the possibility of finding God makes tears form because I WANT them to be in eternity with our Lord of Lords.
Its so easy to get caught up in life and extend yourselves so far in too many directions that you forget the meaning behind it all. I'm sure that happens a lot with our pastoral team and leaders, and I have found that happening to me. But then I have a moment that reminds me of the "why". A moment a teen can share a heart breaking story with me because she knows I've been in her shoes, and she can look up to me and see the work that God has done in my life, and it changes her thought process because she can see the positive side of a situation that at one point thought she wasn't going to make it through. THAT is a gift, a treasured moment that I live for, that is why I serve this amazing God. Those moments that I pray for the unsaved to have enough confidence just to raise their hand at the end of church because they know God is calling them home and they want that welcoming hug that they have been searching for in all the wrong places. Then weeks later watching that same person get water baptized and knowing the joy they must be feeling because they have been set free and made new, tears just poor out because the joy is so overwhelming.
I'm not sure what is coming, not sure if its church wide or something that is going to happen to me personally, but I have the faith to know its going to be good, God is working on something.
Question:
If you could live a life of peace, contentment, a life where you didn't feel the weight of the world on your shoulders pushing you down, freedom and experience a love that you've never known, not even from your spouse, would you want a life like that?
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